Trisha Pons

Trisha- Long week at work this week and a set of misunderstandings that didn't portray me the way that I think that I am.  It made me remember how that final semester in NP school was hard for you with the one particular instructor and how you continued on despite being misunderstood.  I know I would have called you on Wednesday night and told you about it and told you the sense of failure that I was feeling and you would have cheered me up and said the right thing.   I miss your friendship. I miss you.

Nick up the street playing basketball tonight. I can't help but think of Abby, and wonder if she and Nick would still be friends...if she would be shooting baskets with him tonight. Abby will always be 6 years old, but sometimes it is nice to imagine who she would be today! I love you Abby-girl!

I thought of Abby and Trish today when I was at the ball field watching Austin play. The last time I was there was for the opening day in 2007 when Abby's baseball shirt was hung at home plate in her memory. She never got to play that first game of the season; she never got to wear her brand new baseball cleats Trish bought for her. I could see Trish and Abby there so clearly in my mind!!!! Abby at first base or up to bat, and Trish encouraging her! I miss you both so much!

Thinking of you.   Trying to finish a project for work.   I hate that you didn't get to see me find my love in nursing like you did with cardiology.  Miss you my friend.   

Miss you girls all the time. Not a day goes by that  at some point something  someone says or  something I see  that reminds me of you kids. When Abby was little I would cherish the time she would let me hold her, can remember getting to feed her one xmas eve in the rocking chair and having her fall asleep in my arms. She let me hold her hand at the zoo while walking or reading the book with her in my lap that I had made with her as the main character. Remember getting to play all the games with Trish and Abby that weekend I came home, they wore me out. Can still see Trisha pushing Abby in the ally when she was learning to ride her bike with no training wheels on. I don't know how many times she went back and forth with her but Abby got better every trip.  Love you miss you

Abby,  when you were born you brought me so much joy and my world was complete. I was so happy inside! Since you passed I have been searching to have that feeling again.  Iv'e thought many times that I could find it in a partner, job, vacations, money, but I'm realizing the empty feeling comes from not having you here with me each and every day.  It is time to quit searching and accept that you are with Trishy in a much better place.  Abby you were so much more than I had ever dreamed of you to be. I am so thankful that God gave you to me if only for a short time. I am so proud to be your mommy and i would give anything to hold you in my arms one last time. I will continue to be strong and be the best mommy I can to your brother and sister. Ava would have loved you and maybe with your influence put on a pair of jeans here and there. Austin would have had a best friend to play sports with, he could use a helping hand right now with baseball.  We love you and miss you so much. You are forever my sweet baby girl!

I will never forget our last family vacation to Florida. True story of when practical jokes go way wrong! Here it goes....My mom was outside on the balcalony of our condo cautiously enjoying the beautiful view when Trisha decided that she was going to lock the sliding door so that she couldn't get back in. (My mom has an extreme fear of heights).  When my mom tried to get back in and couldn't she became frantic so of course Trisha was going to open the door, but when she tried it wouldn't open. Needless to say we had to call for help which in turn took about an hour. My mom didn't think it was very funny at the time but now we can look back and laugh at how funny she looked while frantically trying to get the door open. Trisha I miss you each moment of everyday. I know you are in an amazing place and spending your days with my beautiful baby girl.  I carry you both in my heart and mind and know one day I will see you both again! I LOVE YOU!

Nick's dad was taking him bowling during spring break (this week 48 months ago), so naturally Abby wanted to go bowling. Trish and I took her. Abby did great, I bowled horrible, and only Trish could throw a bowling ball half way down the lane before it ever landed on the lane! She definitely had her own style!!!

I will never forget Trisha's competitive sprit.  Our late night card playing sessions were a blast.  She was so fun to have as a partner, because she really wanted to win.  Trish also showed this in her volleyball games, which she was so talented in.  She was competitive, but had fun with it- even when I played, and I am horrible at volleyball!  

Abby had the same competitive spirit as Trisha and was always ready to get involved.  I think about her playing with Drew, who was three years older than Abby at the time, and she would never miss a beat.  She was truly an amazing girl.

The week ahead would have been spring break for Abby and myself 48 months ago. I remember that Trish was busy this week sending out her resume to various Cardiologists for the new future she planned for herself as an acute care nurse practioner. Abby played outdoors a lot with her friend Nick, or she was on the computer taking care of her webkins. Easter fell at the end of the week so of course we colored eggs. Trish was always the last to finish hers as each egg had to be just perfect. I'm sorry to say, that most of my time was spent completing assignments for my classes at UC. Little did I know that this was my last week with Abby and Trish. I miss them both so much and would give anything to turn back time.........

Just realized why this photo of Abby and Trish is one of my favorites. If you look closely you can see Abby's natural curiosity about the world as she reaches for Trisha's tassel hanging from her graduation cap. For me it represents Abby's entire future and interest in learning; all that she may have become in this world. Looking closely at Trish I see a young woman who is an inspiration for all of her family; a young woman driven by her own desires to achieve her goals; a  woman who dedicated countless hours to her studies in nursing and set high aspirations for herself; and who loved Abby with all her heart...

Tried to put 2 pics on didnt work so will do again. Such a fun day we had.

Think of you girls everyday and wonder where you would be. Abby playing her sports and Trish taking care of somebody somewhere. Miss u Luvs u

Trish found a good friend in Kathleen and I appreciate so much the memories she has shared about Trish and Abby. I've tried to find a way to reach her to thank her. If you should read this Kathleen, please contact me at ppons58@yahoo.com Thank you.

 

I was cleaning out my old email account yesterday.  The one I used when I moved from Ohio to Missouri. I almost deleted everything in it but your name caught my eye.   I read your email.  Just a sweet "how are you and what are you doing?' email.  My eyes welled up with tears because I realized that we didn't get enough time to be friends.  I hope you know how much your friendship meant to me and how much you are missed.   

Seems like yesterday we were packing the van for our trip to Daytona. Little did we know that our time with Trish and Abby here on earth was nearing its final days and moments. I would give anything to turn back time...

I first met Trisha when she and I taught together at Kettering hospital. We would spend our Thursdays and Friday's together, grabbing lunch and talking in between going to visit our students. She loved to talk about her family and she loved all of you so much. I remember feeling so envious of the relationship she had with her sisters because I didn't have any. Talking about Abby was one of her favorite things in the whole world. We frequently traded Abby stories because I had an Abby too that was the same age. She came to dinner one night at our house and brought Abby to play with my girls. They had such a good time running around. Several weeks after that Trisha got free tickets to the Shriner's Circus and invited us all to go along. Lots of laughter ensued. Oncology nursing was my field and I didn't know a thing about cardiology or hearts. I was so impressed with Trisha and her knowledge base but every time I would tell her that she would smile and blush. She was far too modest. The last time I ever spoke with her she encouraged me to not give up on my dream to get my Master's degree in Nursing. We moved from Ohio in 2005. We kept in touch by email where she would continually laugh at me because I insisted on spelling her name wrong as "Tricia". I was lucky enough to have her come visit for a week that following summer. We spent one of those days in downtown Atlanta, just her and I. Every time my family and i pass Centennial Park I think of her. We spent so much time that week just talking, talking, talking. She was so sweet and brought me cookies from Dorothy Lane because she knew how much I loved them. I miss her friendship so much. She was one of those people that I knew would be a lifelong friend. When the call came from a friend of Kris's I remember standing in the middle of the parking lot at work holding my phone in disbelief. I wasn't able to come home for their funeral but they (and all of you) were never far from my thoughts that day or in the days ahead. I hope you know that Trisha and Abby will never be forgotten, not just by your family but also by the people that had the pleasure to be their friends. I miss her so much.

Had a dream about Abby last night. She was so near and I could hear her voice. She gave me a Christmas present...soccer socks. Imagine that! Making meatloaf tonight. Trish loved comfort food. If only you were here...miss you so much.

No one will ever forget the pie contest on our last Thanksgiving together! Kris had flour everywhere! Abby was there to help. We're not sure if she even measured her ingredients, but by far her pie was the best considering Liz neglected to peel her apples!

Today is Abby's birthday...a day that changed all of lives forever. Her arrival into this world was exciting to say the least, but what I remember most is feeling a type of love I had never experienced before. Perfect love sometimes does not come until the first grandchild. ~Welsh Proverb. Miss you so much Abbygirl!

I can't believe Abby would be 10 years old this month.  It seriously seems like yesterday when I was making all of the sports games for her football themed 6th birthday.  It is absolutely crazy to think that much time has gone by.

I'm keeping the sound of Trish and Abby's voices in my mind. I haven't forgotten how Trish said "Mom", and Abby said "Grammy". Their voices ring in my ears...

Came home tonight very down. True...I am tired from the long week, but it is more than that. The CPR training this morning took me back to that horrible night on April 11, 2007 and all those sick feelings are fresh and new. Oh, how I wish the paramedics could have saved Trish and Abby...

Thought of Abby last night while watching Ava while Kris was out. Ava and I settled down in my room to watch TV just like Abby and I would do. Dragon Tails came on, a show that Abby and I watched. I wonder if this was a sign...I miss you so much Abbygirl

Pulled off the freeway on 75 in Kentucky and immediately remembered stopping at this same spot on our trip back from Daytona. It was very late; we'd been driving all day and I remember Trish was so mad that I wanted to stop again when we were so close to home. I would give anything to be back at that gas station, even if Trish was upset with me.